Wednesday, October 21, 2009

A 'New' Era!

And so, here I am again, begining this blog with a conjunction, just to be out of the box.  :-)  This is Sheila Christine.  It's really me, flesh and blood, same hair, same face, same fingers typing this blog post, the girl that wrote for a year and a bit on Always Exploring, and before that for who knows how long on An Instrument in Christ's Hands.  Yep, it's Sheila, but I'm a renewed Sheila!  I am so excited to embark once again on this amazing journey of faith!

A little background on the story... I have grown up in a wonderful, loving, supportive, caring Christian home.  I am an only child, and have been homeschooled, but I have had many friends along the way.  When I was five years old, I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Saviour, and I'm so glad I did!  He's never let me go, even during the darkest moments.  I grew in Christ for many years, and desired to serve him better and better each day.  As the end of the year in which I called myself fifteen years old came around, my faith seemed dry, and my relationship with Jesus very shallow.  I began exploring.  This lead me down many unfortunate rabbit trails.  I didn't have many friends at the time, and the people who did influence my life, other than my parents, were not followers of the Saviour.  I was swayed.  I delved into all sorts of 'spirituality', and for a year and a half I drifted in the wilderness. 

Looking back on it now, the Holy Spirit was constantly whispering in my ear, loving, gentle, and persistant.  I didn't listen.  I didn't want to listen.  And then, over the past six months or so, it became quietly obvious to me that I wanted to listen, but I had come to the point where I almost didn't know how.  I wanted to follow the Lord better, but I was afraid to go back, and honestly, my pride got the better of me. 

I have had many good times over the past year and a half, but I've also spent far too long in the wilderness; technically in Christ, but not following Him or letting him work through me.  Finally, it came to the point where I came to the end of myself.  I realized I could no longer attempt to be something special apart from Christ.  I knew I had to turn my life around.  I cried.  I wept.  And then I did something very hard.  I cut myself off from all that had swept me away into the ever-rushing current of worldliness.  I must learn, once again, with God's help, to swim upstream, and to let Him work through me, for the better.  I am now never alone.  In fact, I never was, but I tried to be.

Those of you who know me, know that I am a musician.  I sing, I play flute, and I am a pianist, and when I play the piano, I am creating music, letting it flow from the instrument, which on its own could not make a sound at all.  That is the picture of Christ working through me.  I am an Instrument, in His hands!

Sheila Christine

11 comments:

Lorraine said...

"I called out to the Lord, out of my distress,
and he answered me" Jonah 2:1 ... seems an apropriate story ;-) God had His big, wonderful hands on you all the time, and has brought you back from Tarshish! Love you, proud of you (good proud ;-)
Hugs :-)

Maria Pauline said...

I love you. But seriously, you're like on your fourth blog here, unless I'm forgetting a few. :)

-Maria

Sheila said...

Third, I believe! :-)

Meisie said...

Glad to be following you again!

Hugs

Charne

Mariah said...

I thought you had two different "Instrument in Christ's Hands" blogs. :) I love you, glad to see you back! :D
Hugs,
Mariah

Cowgirl_E said...

Yeah,it's the fourth. :) But I think it is really cool how your blogs have really reflected where you are at that point in time...

You are beautiful, Sheila. I love you. I think I'm almost excited as you about what God is doing in you!

Sheila said...

Oh yeah, I'd forgotten about the homeschoolblogger one! Ah, the memory loss has already begun. :-P I guess I always thought of both 'Instrument' blogs as being one, just switching hosts, because I switched all the posts over and everything. :-)

Maria Pauline said...

I told you had had four! :D

Lisa said...

So glad to hear it! I've been praying for you.

Sadie said...

I'm so happy for you reading this post, Sheila! And it's so nice to hear from SOA girls again. :)

Sadie said...

Oh, BTW.... it the link to Always Exploring the correct one? It appears to be in French! And I beleive this is the blog in question? http://exploratorylife.blogspot.com/