What am I to write about, you ask? Or is that very question my question? What is a young, Christian lady to write in contribution to this vast, unending stream of beautiful pictures, finely crafted words, and well-thought-through studies that pour into the sea of the internet? I'm just me, struggling with my own imperfections, my own exhaustion, my own frustrations, and my own fears. I've even discovered bitterness I never thought my heart could harbour, and it has cut me to the quick.
What can I say? I'm just a broken human being, like any of us, but there is one thing that is keeping me going. My life is a ministry. WHAT? Yeah. As a follower and daughter of Christ, I am (I must be!) usable by Him, and though I often fail and often miss opportunities the Lord places squarely in front of me, He can and does use me. I truly cannot understand why or how, but He does, and I so desperately want Him to. So you see, while in many ways today itself is a ministry, with the people I am in contact with and the prayers that I can (and should!) pray, it is also a preparation for tomorrow, for without today's work, tomorrow's study, tomorrow's mission, tomorrow's life, cannot be. The next row of bricks cannot be laid without the one below it.
So it is that I find my work today seeming so much more important, as I realize that it is the foundation for whatever else the Lord may have for me, even though today's job seems so much less important that many things I can imagine. Even so, if my entire life seemed as mundane as today, the Lord would still be sovereign. If He had directed it to appear to me mundane, then it would still be perfect. I fail to understand that, too, but it is so true.
Wow. Off to delight in the way of the Lord. :-)
The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD and he delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the LORD upholds him with his hand. Psalm 37:23-24